I'm sure almost everyone knows this, but...being poor completely sucks.

So, I was getting all excited, because I was going to go to England for my 20th birthday.
I was going to party hard. (Well, as hard as I party, anyways.)
I had already started saving up.
And I was getting so psyched for it.


And then I realized.
I can't afford it.
Oh boy do I ever want to afford it.
But I am up to my ears in credit card debt.
I want to move out by Christmas. I love living at home and all, but I'm almost 20, and I've never felt great about paying my own mother rent.
I have to pay for a car, and insurance.
I also have to pay for a phone bill, and gas.

I don't actually see any of my cheques.
Which is making it impossible to save for England.

I feel like crap.
It was one thing I had my heart set on, and now I can't do it.

I actually feel lower than low.

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