Take me by the hand and tell me you would take me anywhere.

My heart aches a lot lately.
It aches for a home in England
It aches for lost friends
It aches because of loneliness
It aches from never being able to afford the things I truly want in life.
It aches.


I'm not a strong person, and I feel myself getting weaker every day. I'm getting hurt more, and more easily, and shutting people out more because of it.

I'm sorry I've been so shitty, world.
I'm not myself lately.

Watch out world, my pale legs are going to be making many an appearance.

Hello, my two or three readers!
Have you missed me?

Sorry I haven't kept up, I went through an annoying few weeks there. I just couldn't be assed.
But let me update you, alright?

Okay, so, after the last entry, life went back to normal, kind of.
I kind of got depressed about how many people I was losing in my life, and it didn't help that yet another person who I thought I was good friends with decided I was a ginormous bitch, and didn't want to be friends anymore.
I'm just going to say one thing about that..
Screw you, and your holier than thou ways. Like the age old 14-year-old-girl saying goes 'If you don't like me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best.' So... ya. F u.
There's more I could say, but... it would just be unneeded and petty. And as petty as I want to be right now, it's not going to make it any better. Just know, if you ARE reading this, you're a freaking pea-brain. =(

Work is going alright, I find myself getting angrier lately. I think that's partly because no one there cares about anything, and I, being the person that I am, try to make up for it. It's tiring.
But I'm getting a handle on it. I will be cheerful and fun again, I promise. Just too many things are taking a toll on me.

I had an English visitor for a bit. It's hard being a host to someone when you are very low on sleep, and they won't let you sleep in. It's also hard to entertain them when you're not allowed to take them anywhere fun, because your other friend isn't back from Hawaii yet, and you're supposed to wait for her. We watched a lot of food network. And ate out a lot. Helloooo new found belly-fat!
nosashaandalyssayoucannothitme.

It's also hard to just catch up on your thoughts, and have alone time, to you know... just be alone, and by yourself, when you are hosting someone in your house. Maybe I'm the only one that likes alone time. Don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with friends, but when I don't have proper sleep, or enough time to have on my own with my own thoughts, I start getting easily irritated, and snappy.
Mix that with the fact that you dropped and smashed the screen of your iPhone, and... ya. Needless to say... I may not have been the most pleasant person. Sorry about that.

My sister moved back home. Yes.. the married one. No, not with her husband. Trouble in paradise, and apparently it's for good this time. Ruh-roh.
This made me super mad at first, because I liked living the 'only child' life. It was great. I had all this space to myself, and could play music when I wanted, and watch what I wanted, when I wanted, and just be all-around obnoxious whenever the hell I wanted. It was the life.
And now someone else is living down here. And I can't. =(

Also, in that time, Sasha and Greco came back home. I'm so excited. Sasha is going to whip me into shape, and make me exercise, and I will appreciate it. Greco will be made to come along. And OMG BREAKFAST ALL SUMMERRRRRR.
This part of the entry probably makes sense to no one but Sasha. And maybe Greco, if she reads this.

I went on the longest bike-ride of my life yesterday. Definitely tiring, but so worth it. I need to get my bike tuned up so I can stop borrowing Sasha's mother's bike. But I'm so excited about this biking thing! I hope I can stay disciplined with it.
I'm also going again today.
My legs are going to get so tan, and toned~ ehehehehe~
And I'm also going to start running soon, I promise.
Add a little stretchin' and crunchin' in the mornings, with a proper diet, and I am going to be fit as a fiddle!
eehehehehehe

I must be off to shower now, as I've got a biking date to make, but I will blog more in the future. And there won't be as much time between them again, I promise.

HUGZ N KISSES~